[ this might actually be one of the worst people to tell this story to, because: ]

I don't think it's greedy to want something you have been led to believe you can't have because of circumstances outside of your control. And the worst of it is that thinking about how you don't have it makes you want it even more. You can have friends and family who love you, but... it feels different to be told you can't have something and certain circumstances may never change.