It is... but I think it's how I've become after things changed for me on our island. I got to be a lot more immature when all my friends were alive.

[ idly swinging their hands ]

Adolphe was the leader of the Corps, and then he died. So I became leader. And then Scien as our country's god, but when he became... unavailable to us, we had to figure out how to hold ourselves together.

And then when Scien started going against the population itself... it's not like I had room to fall apart.

This situation is hard... but I don't think it's the hardest thing I've ever done.